.....She is Gone.....love story

It was rainy and while waiting for my bus
I saw a girl that day and kept gazing at her until she left
more beautiful then an angel with
blue mystic eyes and glowing white face
I heard her talk with a voice so loving
an attitude too caring

I went home late, walking with slow steps as if
getting anything of my own
a new world never known

I talked to her the following day
and just said, " Lets be friend, you sound so cool"
She replied shying putting her hairs back " Ya why not "
days and months passed, we came closer each moment gone
She left the bus service and it took me the most impatient run of my life
to contact the lovely miss and find some clue of her

From meeting at Fridays to weekends and then to everyday
I was changed from a boy never caring to comb
to a man talking and breathing in the mirror
Waiting the whole day just for evening to come
The morning passes as a leap year but the evening is a lifetime
I dont know why when she smiled I felt heaven
when she touched me with her tender hands, a feeling so special

A year, two months and five days have passed
I knew within my heart that yeah! I am in love
and her amazing smile giving me signs what she meant

It was late Sunday evening
selecting roses took me an hour
I went running to her house and I just saw a lock
a lock that changed my life
flowers dropped and emotions lost
running like mad from door to window
to have a look into the beloved site
Neighbors knew nothing and
I took to cursing

Cursing myself, my fate and everything of mine
I was worried, worried to hell
"What must have happened?", "Did anyone die?", "Has she left me alone?", "Is she fine?"
just each bad thought giving way to desperate results

Two months passed with all peace
as my heart was still on lease
with the "life" that was mine
I was changed again, nothing pleasant anymore
flowers smelled bad and sky seemed to be hell
as if God gave me birth to enjoy lost love

I dont know what day it was,
a door ring never heard disturbed the silence
my steps were faster then the bullet train
to my prayers, I saw my "life" back
she hugged me and kissed sweetly on my cheek
and said, "My dear, I missed you very much"
I just said within " Sorry God, I doubted on your justness"

but may be it was too late
she told me that she left on a surprise holiday
to the beaches with her family and cousins
I had got her hence was ready to hear any excuse the very moment
Then with her typical shy smile she whispered
" I wanna tell you something"
her head was down and hands criss-crossed
I knew her lovely intentions and asked her to tell me soon
she said " I found a wonderful boyfriend in my vacations"
"I want you, my best friend to meet him someday"
left shockingly quiet, happiness looking fake on my face
my heart cried, her loss gave me pinches fiercer as
she was present in this world but lost for me

I was left alone again and this time
even thoughts were not revolving fast
what should I do? Its all my fault
I thought she can read my eyes but I was and I am wrong
Now I welcome all the blame on myself
Will just pray for her happiness
As love is unconditional and is never lost

I am lucky to get her love but unlucky enough not to get her
I cant love anyone now as she took my heart with her
I will roam on this earth with a tired heart and paralyzed soul
Waiting for some divine angel to rejuvenate and revitalize me

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Whenever in love, never wait and never add conditions
You both may wait for the response and get bad memories for your life
Say your love as soon as you feel it
Be it a guy or a girl
Plz leave ego at that time
Love is invaluable, nothing compares
If you get a straight NO then its bad luck
But if you dont describe your love by words
Your "love" will leave you
You would be left to lament the whole life
"She/he might have said YES"
the word "might" will torture your soul for a long time.