I understand you very well. I also have a bike, and I love riding it, especially on nights. The only problem is the light on aero road bars. I`ve been searching for this type of light for weeks, even months, and I didn`t find anything. It is very dangerous to ride a bike at night without a light. So I found out a website:
https://www.amazon.com/Flagpole-Energy-Battery-Illumunation-Vont/dp/B00YBDA7DC/ which I recommend you because here I found the exact thing I needed the most. Light on aero road bars is hard to find, but on this website, everything is possible. I recommend.