didn't write it... sumbodi sent it to me... thought it was nice...
Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you dont want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. but at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being all caring. Have u ever just wanted to lie down and cry, but yet u don’t know exactly what you’re crying over. Ever had days that seemed like an eternity and u wait and pray forever to see one person and this one person only, u start to wonder if they care, all u do is think of their smile, their eyes, the way they say hi, the tone in which they speak. U wait all day to see this one person and when u finally do everything just disappears for those couple seconds when u see them or when they say hi. U think u love them and u think u care but then all of the sudden u get a reminder of sumthing u use to have and now nothings right again. U think and think for hours about how u feel and whos better but deep down u know which one u like and even tho how much u want to deny it u know its there. U know it from the look in their eyes, for the eyes are the unspoken words of the heart. U know that u are suppose to be with them and only then right now, yet u still have the thought of another memory in your mind and heart. The only reason why u have this memory was because that one person touched your heart, soul, body, and mind, and you are just afraid to let sumone else do the same in fear that u will lose this memory of a certain other. The ones who touch your heart, their memory will remain with u forever so don’t be afraid to let sumone else do the same for it feels absolutely amazing when this happens and if u are afraid to get hurt then u are not ready to love for loving is taking the chance of getting hurt. This feeling is a funny one and yet its really upsetting but u know when u feel like this there is no way to describe it u just don’t know what to do you are all confused....
Posted on 11/22/2003 5:07:40 AM
