eshajam
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I was broken, Left aside to sulk and lick my wounds, dissed by those who claimed to be there for me, And left too stand on two painful legs.
I was burning, under all those staring eyes, and all the lies I have heard, left here too feel lone and hated.
I was suffering, with the least love, and the heat of hell, and all I had was a little pillow of mine.
I was suicidal, left alone with nothing by my side, but then god decided too help, And sent YOU TO ME..
You changed me, brought me up from the darkest time, and healed my wounds, And made me strong.
Now Im here, With all those who love unwillingly, and who love unconditionally It is all because of you, you gave me my life and my life without you is nothing..
eshajam
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~tasha~ said:
CHANDNI RAAT HO TUM MERE SATH HO ANKHON MEIN ANKHEIN HATHON MEIN HAATH HO CHAHOON MEIN TUJHEY HAR DAM TERE DIL MEIN MERI CHAHAT HO MEREI KHUSHI MEIN TUM KHUSH HO TUMHARI KHUSHI MERI RAATH HO GILLE HOON SHIKWAY HOON PIYAR BHARI ESSI KOI BAAT HO MEIN AUR TUM MIL BETHEIN KOI TU AKHER ESSI RAAT HO
eshajam
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Set me back another day lead me to another way put me to a different life took me away from all this strife there for me through thick and thin watched out for me everywhere i've been i hope these moments never end i hope you never forget that i am your best friend
eshajam
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I will always believe in you
the power of love and hope, the power of trust and faith, the power of meaning and reason, the power of luck and happiness, the power of anger and sadness
Do I still believe in you?
I believe with all my heart Would I let you play the part? I believe with all my soul Would I let you score the goal?
I believed in you would I believe in you again?
If I believe in your eyes would they see mine? If I believe in your hands would they hold mine? If I believe in your lips would they kiss mine? the most of all if i believe in u would you believe in me ?
eshajam
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I see the clouds rolling in and oh how it looks like rain And it is always I fight for the welcome change When it rains it pours on this heart of mine So, I take the storms I feel to her each time.
But I know she has lived under her own pouring rain Yet under her water her heart still doesn't change She can walk away from what hangs overhead And, not in her storm, are words left unsaid.
Not in her storm have I ever felt alone Her storm ends, so I, may find my way home It's for me that she pushes away her own rain So, that I may find comfort in calling her name.
She lives in this world for the sake of another's heart God, how she eases the miles when worlds apart And she never wanders when your world falls through Not ever in her storm would she do this to you.
She has wings of light that I know not only I can see Cause only an angel could find strength to carry me It's the way that the eyes can surely view How her heart's written so clearly in what an angel can do.
Not in her storm is her work ever done And even in her storm she hands me the sun When her world is dark - I always have light And now how I hold the new color of night.
She takes then she gives to an unhappy face So that many can find an awesome place I have been able to love her more every day And with her hand in mine the clouds roll away.
Not in any storm that I will ever live beneath Could ever change what I hold here inside of me Not in any of her storms have I lost my angels touch To that angel out there, I love her so much.
eshajam
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You are life and love and more. You are earth and fire and more. You are the sky above the sea below and more. You are what encompasses life What gives direction What holds hope What nurtures happiness What feeds passion And more.
eshajam
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Time or fate may separate friends, lovers, But friendship or love that's true will ever Thenceforth continue to live forever, True love conquers the odd with its power. As time passes by, things change with the time, Every moment, hour, day, month, and year, All things have their turn to change with the time, Life, time, and events change with the years. Everyone, everything, have a time and day, A time to change, end, begin a new day, Change is life, the course of life everyday, All things change, and we change with them all days. Only the Eternal one is constant, All things in the universe, inconstant, But despite it all, love is important, The world may change, but true love is constant.
eshajam
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I was lying in bed this morning thinking about you, Feeling the sharp stabs in my chest. Tears slide down my cheek. Uncontrollable. Your face it still haunts me. I can still feel you breathing. I reach out to touch you but it is just empty space. I wish that you would let go and trust me. You are with me now; Right by my side, Our souls intertwined.
The morning sunlight gently floods, The room through the pale vertical blinds. I am living in darkness. I move my head slightly staring at the white wall. My pillow is soaked with my salty tears. I remember your eyes; large and curious, Peering. Your lips moist… Your skin; smooth and sensitive to touch. Close embrace.
I shuffle and pull the covers tighter around me, Clutching a pillow against my shivering body. My mind is blank now but you are still here. I can feel your presence, it envelops my whole being. When you are away, I am an empty shell. I am still lying here, Lips trembling, insecure, lost... Your voice is a lullaby so my soul slumbers and does not wake. My heart bleeds a thousand wounds. I endure this eternal death.
Hallucinations... Memories force themselves upon me. Slowly you start to disappear. My mind cries out. How much longer shall you stay? How much longer must you torment my soul? I am growing weary and my spirit is weak. Nothing left but salty tears and an empty shell.
eshajam
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~tasha~ said:
The empty ache of loneliness A hollow emptiness A desperate want For their caress To fill the void Left by invisibility Butterflies flutter When you meet their gaze Knees weaken, just for a second As they brush past Then light-headedness When you smell their scent Then later In the quiet of the night The empty void of want Loins aching for them Then hollow emptiness The constant companion The loneliness Of unrequited love
eshajam
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just like i am missing u
I never thought i would think of you, wait for your message, wait for you, I never thought i would miss you, I thought you were just a fantasy friend, Oh dear, how wrong was I. I'm insane! but i pushed you away for your own good, you are unique, only a fool would refuse you, Yet i know we don't have what we had, Why couldn't you be near me? I need you now more than ever before, Everyday i think of you, i miss you, but i don't wish the same for you, As I'm aware of the pain, that arises, By missing someone, who is the most dearest to you, You were the only hope i had, i had hoped you would stay always by my side, But now your presence is no-where to be felt, The warmth of your words, that soothed my pain, that demolished my fears, healed my wounds, Those words are missing, like I'm missing you, you were different, like no one else before, You had made me believe, there are people who cares for you, you were like an angel, assigned to me By Lord, You certainly proved to be one, I swear by my Lord, But now you Have disappeared by my own wish, How i wish i could show you, how much i miss, I have my reasons, but you will never know, But i wish you happiness, success and health, I'm sure without me you're more likely to heal, I was nothing but a pain to you, But now that I'm gone, you're free, I hope you that you don't miss me, Like i miss you, I hope you forget me, ..........Like yesterday's news..........
eshajam
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Lashakir said:
Feelings from my Heart, as Love fills the air, Touching many around me who really do care. Those dreamy type feelings like a soft, gentle light, Brings peaceful type feelings from morning to night. Walking through life with Love I do know, Brings a smile to my face and a soft, gentle glow. Those Loving feelings that fills my heart will always stay, They will always be with in me, to life's ending day.
eshajam
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miss universe said:
Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried; Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied. I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . . And the Master so gently said, "Wait."
"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply. "Lord, I need answers, I need to know why! Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.
"My future and all to which I relate Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait? I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign, Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe, We need but to ask, and we shall receive. And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry: I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate, As my Master replied again, "Wait." So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut, And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . . and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be. You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me. You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint. You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there. You'd not know the joy of resting in Me When darkness and silence are all you can see.
"You'd never experience the fullness of love When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove. You would know that I give, and I save, for a start, But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
"The glow of my comfort late into the night, The faith that I give when you walk without sight. The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee, What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee. Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true, But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.
"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me. And though oft My answers seem terribly late, My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."
