...Tear Of Sadness...

...Tear Of Sadness...

We are riding in a bus
I see you smile before my me...
Your laughter and joy brings a tear to my eye
We are talking...
I can't hear either of our voices
But it doesn't really matter what it's about
Because both of us are happy
Because this was how we always lived...

I hold your hand in mine
We gaze at each other and smile
The sun outside the window is setting ever so slowly
We close our eyes and our lips meet
Fireworks light up the sky
All I feel is pure joy
The joy of being with you

I see you in your room
You are crying such tears of sadness, and I don't know why
How can the world be so cruel?
To inflict pain on someone so loving and sweet?
I can feel my throat throbbing

A little black cat comes to sit beside you
That cat is me
Licking the side of your cheek
Nuzzling against you softly
My lips reach your ear
Whispers exchange
Telling you that everything will be all right
And yet...

My voice can no longer reach you
I see you sitting alone in a vast darkness
Your head buried in your arms
Sniffs and sobs echoing in the air
And every word that passes my lips only succeeds in making you sink deeper
The rain suddenly pours
You are in a city all alone
Sitting against the wall
In a sea of ruined buildings
As if you were the last human in the world

But you're not...
That's what I've been trying to tell you
I continue rushing through the rain
I search and search for you, but the ruined city is so vast
I'm lost, and I can't find my way
My heart grows heavy, but I rush on anyway
I can't stop
Not until I reach you

So many images of memories rush through my mind
Memories that would've existed, in a parallel world
But I never realize that...
My only thought is to find you
To kiss you
To save you...

Two angels are floating in the air
One with dark wings, the other with white
We are both reaching out to each other
Yet, a wind between us seems to be trying to blow us apart
I see your tears and feathers scattering to the wind
"NO!" I hear myself cry out as we are blown from each other into the darkness

Then, everything's finally all right
The pain, the suffering has finally come to an end
And I can't believe this is all for real
We are sitting beside a large window of a wooden house
We look out at the beautiful sunset
I let out a happy sigh, because I can feel its warmth radiating against my skin
This must be real!

I see us send a muffled exchange of words
You suddenly look so happy
Tears roll down my face as I smile back
We rush forward and our lips finally meet for the first time
I can almost feel it
It feels so real
Our happiness unable to be described in words
"I love you!" I hear you whisper...

My eyes finally open
I see myself in my room
A prison surrounded by white walls
At first, I question myself
Why am I here?
Why am I not with you?
Maybe you woke up before me?

I almost laugh at the thought
Until reality hits
In a fraction of a second, my heart drops to the bottom of the sea
And then I cry
How cruel this world must be
I know what should be real
And this is not it
This is a nightmare...

As I fall apart, I think of you
So far away
In a vast world, where it's almost impossible for us to meet
Outside forces, as well as thoughts of me, tearing away at your mind and soul
At this very moment
As I sit here in silence
All alone, and without you

And so, I bury my head in my arms
And realize, that we have both been crying tears of sadness...

Posted on 11/17/2007 3:42:41 PM