Fighting always
never satisfied
complaints,
misunderstandings
you think Im yelling
Im really not.
My voice tone is high
and yet you get mad.
I try to hard to make you happy.
And I know you try real hard too.
My crying, my screaming is doing me
no good. Yesterday, I almost took off
for good.
Life sucks. Off from College
Lookin for a job...
Summer...3 weeks left
and I have nothing in store
but boredum.
Getting sick.
Worried more.
So far away
from another
home.
Sniffing
Sneezing
Crying and
Teasing
I aint
Pleasing
I can't be ThaNkfUl
4 what I have
Dont knOw why I want
To Climb hiGhEr on
this ladder.
Maybe if I was a village girl
it would be different
But Im not
Im spoiled lil dolly
And who spoiled me but you.
I think you had no clue
this spoiling will become
a habit.
Don;t yah know habits are
hard to change.
Sometimes you let me slide.
Let me rest and set me aside.
Soemtimes you overwhelm me
want everyhting done at once
Im only me...how can it be possible?
You make excuses. I dont know why.
I thought you were something
but you turned out to be nothing of such
it aint much
I can live this life
so what yah want for lunch?
No one understands the neccessites
that led me to this point. you dont know
either. No one knows me better than I do.
The things I do...who I really am...only my heart knows.
Since childhood the torturing and unfairness
started and until now...the little thigns bug me.
The thigns I remember the most are the negative. But, they say its what all humans remember. You try it thinking of your past. Im sure you will remember more nagtive than positive.
I miss my mom. Wish she was here with me. Yet shes 400 miles away. Poor ladies getting old. Not even that old. Now at this age she realised she wants to spend more time with ehr children. Maybe one day they will have to leave to. Shes full of love and never hates. SHe has a warm heart. She desrves the best.
Now where have I gone. Its a habit...A lil devil friend taught me. Writing feelings galore. Its halping me more and more. Dont think anyone will really read this but ONE. But its alright...I wont fight or bite. Its that time again. Its bright...night so far away. Its light!
I murder a mod with one rule at a time
You never read of a mind as messed up as mine
You better get rid of them rulez, it ain't gonna help
What good's it gonna do against a member who made em up himself
What do I think of a topic with guests? It sucks, too much stress
Too much BS to go thru gets me upset
...It's just too much mess
Dissin u quick did i get to do did is my wording right
Whatever you say is wrong, whatever I say is right
You think of my name now when 1 throws lyrical attacks at u
Am I being that cruel
But see JB is always been so friendly to me
Can't wait till I show u the spirit in me
But are u worth it?
Look at ur post counts how is u perfect?
Read my lovely poems mods, what my words aint workin?
You see this finger? is it upside down?
Here, let me turn this lil cutie up right now
i'm jus 2 good to be tru
a bad guy who laughs at ppl
when they be feelin blue
imma headturner to these mods
who works on me for me like some computer bots
so i try to play hard n give em hard time
each n every post i make is like a crime
maybe next time i would jus cuss u out
but i promissed wol i will keep it down low
or else i would've jus cracked a knife thru ur toez
slice ur throat cut u up in pieces n gets on a boat
throws u off in a bag under water here she floats
n after that its Yas Devil back on the same road
huntin for idiots like them i roast...
You should bust out with your feelings
without a care
of folks here or there...
just get it out of yourself
before it becomes poison
running through your veins
write it through words
say it outloud
bust out...
u'd think wouldn't u
give in
