You said that you still loved me,
And that you wanted to try again.
And in my hurt and desperation,
I believed you to the end.
We both knew there were some problems,
And things we needed to work out.
So many things we had to conquer,
But after all, thats what loves about.
I thought we could make it this time,
I thought we would make it through.
Because there's nothing more i wanted,
Than to spend eternity with you.
And just like that you were gone again,
Without a single reason why.
But i will never let you hurt me again,
Because thats the last time I'll believe your lies.
Theres an invisible wall
Around you
Not noticable
At first
But through peripheral vision
I saw its
Glint
You covered it up
Im so confused
Theres something there
I cant reach far enough
When i touch it
Its not there
Reality wakes me up
From my life
In my mind
Someplace where
We're together
It seems so real
But it doesnt exsist
Just your mist
Your invisible
Wall
Of nothing
digital flashes neon
blinding are these blinking lines
telling it's one ten
i'm up again
i wonder how many other girls
you send messages to at night
open the shades
my room fills with moonlight
are you looking at the sky too?
i wish you could know
i hope you sleep tight
as i sit up in bed
dreams taking flight
yet i'm awake
my window relfects the skies
shimmers of hope
caught in the crytal of my eyes
there's something about yours
something in the way you move
your curves and shadows
so close to mine
all etched into the story line
to think, two wrongs don't make a right
'they're wrong', i'll say
have they seen us?
our wrongs
belong
Why most I
Get deceived
On what I want
There many things
I want but you
Won’t give them
To Me
There is one thing
I would die for
There is one thing
That I wish I could have
But you just don’t
Let me have that
You just take it
Away and forget it
That is your love
You dont understand my feelings
You dont know who I really am
You cant see anything beyond my appearance
I dont know if I'm happy around you
You're the one I want but I know I can't have
Why must I always go after what I want?
I know you'll just end up hurting me... wait
You already have
You talk about other girls, like they're better than me
Each time you do that, it leaves a crack in my heart
This was the last time,
It's been shatter all because of you
I've been waiting for you
Where have you been
Well now that i have you,
You ain't goin' no where
I can't lose you now,
That just wouldn't be fair
You say you want to go off and fight
But that's not right
You were just found
Now you want to go back underground
If you decide to leave
I wouldn't do anything but grieve
No matter what you do or say
There just isn't a way
I love you so
So, PLEASE DON'T GO
there are times when i feel depressed
and there are times when i don't
there are times when i feel so much pain
and there are times when i don't
there are times when i want to break the world
and there are times when i don't
there are times when i want to end it all
and there are times when i don't
these times are the times i feel alive any other time i don't
behind the blood shot shine
lay the two turquoise eyes
brillant blue green like oceans
tides of tears
crying for something they didn't do
something that just 'got in the way'
you can see the oceans
spill their rainstorm
create their hurricane
but will never empathize
the course with all its pain
blood chilling through body's vein
so cold it burns
release the pain
cut opens doors
crimson turn black
on wooded floors
the winds will howl
this strom rages on
right until the moment
that the pain has dripped gone
Happiness uplifts me
Happiness fills my heart, my mind, and my soul
Happiness gives me the strength I need
Happiness is a good feeling that enters my mind each day
Happiness takes my sadness away
Happiness fills my eyes with joy
Happines makes me excited and thrilled
Happines warms my heart and soul each day
Happiness gives me a sense of relief each day
Happiness welcomes me each morning when I get up
Happiness can be seen in my eyes
I hate that you changed.
I hate that you’re the same.
I hate that you left.
I hate how you’ve stayed.
I hate how I cry.
I hate how you make me smile.
I hate how I miss you.
I hate how I feel.
I hate how it hurts.
I hate that it’s my fault.
I hate that it’s yours.
I hate that I can’t be around you.
I hate how I’ve lost you.
I hate how I’ve found out who you really are.
I hate that I can’t tell you any of this.
But most of all,
I hate how I can’t hate you,
Not even a little.
I hate how I still love you.
My destiny haunts me day, my destiny haunts
me at nights.
My destiny speaks to me each morning,
still I have not understood what
'Destiny is'.
My destiny keeps me up at nights pondering
about 'Destiny', which I have heard so much
about. Yet I can not find the answer to my
own destiny.
Seeing my fellow human it would appear that
most of them have found the secret to this
destiny. But, some like myself are still in
search of our destiny.
My destiny suddenly comes to light when I was
near my end through the path of life. And, it
was at that point I became aware that my task
throughout my life was my destiny.
My destiny has been visible in my actions, in
my words during my life. The failer to make
contact with my destiny was none other, than
lack of understanding.
Destiny beckon at me with these words, 'If
you had known the meaning of the word destiny,
you would not have toiled so much.'
That is your destiny.
Once I saw a rainbow
Over the ocean blue
Encompassed by a shadow
Of every color and hue.
It was a double rainbow
Most beautiful to see
and underneath the rainbow
Were two sails upon the sea.
I think it was God's message
Quite old, and get still new
It takes both rain and sunshine
To make the lovely view.
As we go along life's highway
A lot of rain must fall.
But we can find the rainbow
When the sun shines over all.
So, if you feel discouraged
And don't know what to do
Just trust for God's own sunshine
To bring a rainbow over you.
