Looking Past The Heartache
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The emptiness has gripped my sanity
formidable loneliness has begun to set in
I keep searching for a way back to reality
clawing my way through the rubble
All the clutter collected from loving you
clouding my mind and leaving me so numb
from what was trivial to that which matters
melded together in the confounds of my mind
Piece by piece the puzzle comes together
I have lost the battle to ever truly be happy
my utopia has gotten lost along the way
silenced, my happiness has been elusive
Disillusioned, stark reality begins to set in
tears fall freely with no one to catch them
our discourse reduced to pleasantries
I wish to transverse quickly to our finality
I'd die for your love, is now dispassionate love
my heart craves the thought of your loving arms
yet my mind begins to dislike the thought of you
I search for a place between my mind and heart
a place called reality, a place to find a friend
Football is her favorite sport
A beautiful girl inside and out
Is crazy about Yankee baseball
Talent is what she is all about
Hanging out with friends is cool
Fantastic writer of poetry too
Unduly talented in gymnastics
Loves meeting new people like you
Doesn't like liars or backstabbers
Roller coasters make her scream
Eminen and Green Day are favorites
American beauty with many a dream
Music moves her as the cd's play
Easy going and knows what to say
Resounding beauty in every way
One day a princess fairy was sitting by the pond
she saw something in the water, it was a magic wand
as she picked it up and waved it, before very long
she started hearing a strange voice singing a song
Her first thought was to hide or quickly run away
she jumped upon a lily pad but it began to sway
she fell into the pond, she knew she could not swim
a fallen tree nearby, she quickly grabbed a limb
The voice kept getting closer, then she tried to fly
but she would have to wait till her wings were dry
her heart was beating faster, the fear began to show
she dived into the water and disappeared down below
The voice started shouting, oh no what did you do
I didn't mean to scare you, I'm a fairy just like you
He picked up the magic wand and waved it all around
he could only have one wish, he tossed it on the ground
His only wish had been, turn into a frog right away
he jumped into the water and rescued her that day
as the frog sat by the pond and held her near his heart
she opened up her eyes and wished they would not part
He had used his only wish, now a frog he'll have to stay
so the fairy princess picked up the wand on that summer day
I only have one wish and that's to spend my life with you
at that moment the princess fairy became a froggy too
Hidden Within The Words
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My heart floats like butterfly wings,
words are adrift as an angel sings.
Writing emotions, tapping away,
typing to keep the darkness at bay.
Emote my feelings sharing with you,
my pain and sorrow, happiness too.
Expressing my life in a new post,
read great poems in a contest I host.
Spending some time on line with my friends,
feeling the pain when a friendship ends.
Each word I write is a part of me,
an open book for the world to see.
Filling such thirst my chalice is full,
pounding out rhyme with my senses dull.
Finding myself wth stanza and verse,
look deep within for poetry terse.
Hidden within the words I now write,
shadows appear this long winter night.
Cast down upon me as clouds roll by,
writing, searching for the reason why.
Quiet thoughts of a dear friend
we share the beauty of God's love
our friendship shall last forever until
we sing someday in Heaven above
The closeness we share together
the bond of a special love so dear
will only bring us closer and closer
as we converse year after year
Let's say goodbye to all the darkness
bid a fond farewell to hidden fears
let me lean on your strong shoulders
let us smile together through our tears
Hold onto me through your sadness
that's what forever friends are for
allow God's love to fall upon us
let His love bless us again once more
The Lord has granted us all goodness
and mercy for the days of our lives
all we must do is put our trust in Him
through His love all goodness derives
Take my hand dear friend walk with me
let God lead us to a path that is pure
sunshine shall always be their for you
our love as friends shall always endure
Sunbeams glisten on the morning tide
seagulls are waking at the break of day
my eyes look out upon the vastness
the sea calls as it echoes across the bay
The moon has gone over the horizon
it brings tomorrow in a place far away
our plans for the future disappeared
our dreams sailed away yesterday
As I watch the whitecaps gently sway
your ship gets further out of sight
may God go with you where you go
always remember it is just and it is right
The waves wash upon the sandy shore
as I leave my footprints in the sand
I kneel and pray for your safe return
God please help my heart to understand
They say all is fair in love and in war
though fairness may not come to pass
the winds of change blow upon us
all I feel now is such emptiness, alas
The tides roll back and forth each day
back and forth each night it seems
our love for country is beyond reproach
return to me so I may follow my dreams
I look out the window
and what do i see
not flowers and bee's
everything is dead
dead like me
cold and motionless
limp and frail
not caring much about the world
just hoping to curl up and die one day
to give up on this world today
cause i have nothing left to ancore me down
my root's are rotten
detached from the ground
the cold wind hits me hard
one more gale and i'll be down
down, down in the ground
where i should be
dead and never found
this is everything that i see
in the world and in me
i want to be normal
i want to be glad
to look out the window
and never have
another thought just like this
all i want to see is another me
who looks out the window
and then she see's
only ever
flowers and bee's
Here you are again
Repeating that same routine
You missed that taste
It’s lured you once again
One, then another, and so on
Rushed to your brain
Heaven for the moment, agony tomorrow
That precious high
It’s all right in front of you
The decision is yours to make
Your slipping back into the past
That gap you will never leap
Strength is gone, your not surprised
Break that bone, you feel it snapping anyways
It doesn’t protect you anymore
Live for fun indulge yourself
You’ve done it, thats why your pathetic
Now you will pay
Just remember to look up at the stars
Remind yourself of your insignificance
Now you have returned
That place you tried to forget
There you will remain
There you will perish
Just like he said
See how he will feel, now that you have made him right
Just like his brother, the black sheep, the dead one
It’s not like you cared anyways
Sweet soul full of loveliness
Outstanding writer with finess
Unique woman, fine qualities
Loving, caring, a spirit free
Fasinates, woman of mystique
Undertakes, writes, a good critique
Leaves you wanting more poetry
Wandering dreams in fantasy
Opulent, compassion galore
Masterful poet we adore
Always there, this woman of soul
Nick name describes her best of all
Is this right, is this wrong,
I won't know until its done,
I'm trusting my heart now,
I'm moving on,
It'll be hard I know,
I'm sorry, for your sake,
I'm not wanting to put you through this,
I have to do what's right for me,
Even if it hurts you, just remember,
I'll always be here
Despite the past...
Sadly I gaze at the darkend sky dreaming of a time
When life was in reach when I had the strenght to climb
When there were more stars In the endless sky then there could ever be black
When I had my chances but now I failed them all
The decisions were mine so right or wrong I can't turn back
Don't tell me you love me don't say thing will be fine
In your life they could be but never seams that way in mine
You cannot change the trees
You can stare into my eyes I can't even glance in the mirror
When you are lost you always see things clearer
A half life led with no direction am I dead or is this hell?
Every one is going somewhere and even if they never get there at least they tried
And though it may be dreary I cant leave my cell
